Every year around the holidays, people who are stressed, upset, lonely, angry, and afraid call Neulia Compulsion Solutions. Holidays bring cheer to many, but for those with addictions, it can bring tremendous suffering.
When it seems like the whole world is coming together to celebrate, it’s very easy for an addict to feel like they are missing out. It’s a scary time of year. It makes people who are already feeling angry or alone act out. People more readily turn to their addictions as a coping mechanism. This only leads to feeling even more isolated than before.
It feels easy to spiral out of control this time of year, but I’m reaching out to you now to let you know there’s a better way of dealing with your addiction during the holidays. It might feel like things have gotten a lot worse for you, but they haven’t. It might feel like everyone around you is joyful and content, but they’re not. You’re being sold lies, and internalizing them is going to hurt you.
I want to help you.
Loneliness During the Holidays
Here’s the truth about people with sex addictions: they don’t have a clue about intimacy. They really want to connect with other people in a meaningful way, but they are unable to. They objectify, they act out, they visit porn sites over and over again, and they never feel fulfilled.
As I always say, you can never get enough of what won’t satisfy you.
At the root of your loneliness is your sex addiction. It’s keeping you separate from others, even at the time of year where you desperately don’t want to feel isolated. We get a lot of calls from men during this time of year because people need to be heard, understood, and cared for.
In addiction counseling, there is a concept known as HALT. This stands for hurt, angry, lonely, or tired. When a someone with a sex addiction is feeling any combination of those emotions, they are more likely to fall back into their old destructive patterns. Also, at a time of year where you are watching people gather together, exchange gifts, and become closer, you are bound to feel hurt, angry, lonely, and tired.
Making things worse is the fact that the holiday season is longer than ever. Beginning in mid-September we start seeing holiday merchandise in stores. This can be triggering for you, especially if you are feeling sensitive about being alone. So now, instead of feeling sorry for yourself for a few weeks in December, you may have three full months of anxiety and resentment.
I can tell you from experience that I don’t have people calling in because they feel lonely at Easter, or Labor Day, I have them calling in now (December). Something about Christmas, and New Year’s Eve really affects addicts. I’m happy they call me rather than acting out, and I invite you to call me as well to start working through your tangle of emotions.
You Can Still Have a Happy Holiday
If you are in the grip of an untreated sex or a porn addiction right now, it’s probably safe to say that you will not be magically cured. You might also not be in a stable and respectful long-term relationship a week from now. I don’t say that to be flippant, I say it to be real. I also say it to point out that being in a romantic relationship is not the only way to connect with other people at this time of year.
There are hundreds of opportunities all around you to make a meaningful connection. If you feel like you can’t get love from others, you can still be generous and spread happiness. Try helping out at a local homeless shelter. Perhaps try volunteering and giving your time to a community project you feel is important. Check in on a neighbor who might also be lonely at this time of year. Show up with a holiday card, shake their hand, and let them know they haven’t been forgotten. It feels good for both you, and your neighbor.
Whatever you do, don’t stay alone. The celebration of the holidays are not dependent on a partner or your family. There are other options open to people struggling with their mental health and addictions. If a friend invites you out, accept the invitation! If your neighborhood is doing a potluck, sign on up and go. Is your church hosting a holiday service? Make it a point to attend. Your sex addiction wants you to remain isolated. This year, you’re going to make a different choice.
I Know this Pain Because I’ve Lived it
I’m saying this to you because I have been there. By the sweat of my brow, I dug through my addiction and saved my own life. I can’t tell you how many times I died around Christmas, or felt unbelievably low on New Year’s Eve. I’ve been exactly where you are.
I’ve had that horrible realization that the women in the porn videos and the strippers don’t give you anything. I’ve been there when the misery kicks in, thinking “Buddy, you’ve got nobody.”
But the holidays can involve a sense of fulfillment if you take the reins, and turn your situation around. This year you don’t have to sit with emptiness or fear. You might not know it yet, but someone needs you. Right now. Break the isolation and go to bed at night feeling like you did something good.
If the time comes when the feelings get too intense, I hope you’ll pick up the phone and give us a call. We are here to help, to listen, and even to wish you a happy holiday. Believe me, once you begin working on your sex addiction, this holiday and every one after will be happy for you. YOU can make it happen.